I struggled for years with negative thoughts.

There were times I felt like my own mind was attacking me in a nonstop barrage of terrible thoughts.

Nothing in particular was happening to even justify the thoughts, most of the time, but they just kept coming.

It took years for me to realize that I am super aware and that many thoughts were other people’s and most importantly potential realities and timelines I was aware of.

I remember at one point I would go for daily walks around the block and it took almost all my focus to keep flipping each negative thought.

If I let my mind wander for a second there was another shit thought.

Obviously I didn’t enjoy my walks very much because at the time I believed I had to address and change every unwanted thought I had!

Have you tried that method too?!

It was insane, and thankfully I realized pretty quickly that I don’t have to spend my entire life analyzing, chopping, and reconfiguring each thought I’m aware of.

I want to point out...

Do you find yourself blaming others for how you feel?

Thinking if this or that person were different then you’d be in a better mood, more successful, or that your entire life would be different?

If you don’t think you do this, I encourage you to pay attention and notice the subtle ways you actually are making others the cause in your reality. 

Yes, we are all programmed in childhood. And we carry loads of cellular memories from our ancestors which can and does impact our life and choices.

But, you do not have to let all those things control what you choose in your own life now.

It is important that you admit if you feel abused, cheated and angry about your upbringing and family dynamics. Then you must decide if you want to wallow in that forever, or dig deeper to free yourself from perpetuating these cycles.

Increasing your awareness can be scary and uncomfortable.

But, it is also one of the most life changing things you can choose. I’ve found that if you weren’t judging what yo...

Many years ago I had a serious fear of abandonment.

It would often show up as me feeling concerned that people were mad at me, for no particular reason.

Which meant I had done something bad and would result in being left.

And when my mom died it obviously amplified much of those feelings.

I had this deep hurt inside that felt as if I had done something wrong, otherwise: my mom wouldn’t have died.

Not logical at all, but feelings aren’t logical.

The anxiety around others I cared about suddenly leaving me started to show up as an energy of chasing, insecurity, and distraction.

I mostly experienced this in friendships.

But, I know countless people, mostly women, who sit by the phone obsessing over a love interest calling or texting them.

You could read about attachment styles, rehash years or lifetimes of trauma but thankfully none of that is really necessary.

The crux of it is that if you are chasing people, wondering if they like you, anxiously awaiting their reply and...

Have you ever had one of those days where you just felt weird?

Not necessarily bad, but definitely not good either.

Recently I was having one of those days where I felt caught in a time-warp and everything felt disconnected and like I was walking through one portal after another.

Sounds fun, but can be exhausting!

I have had this happen before, but on this particular day I realized I was aware of multiple things that were slightly new to me.

My own energy, past experiences coming up to release and pre-processing some clearings coming up in the next few days.

If you’ve done any sort of energy work, bodywork, could even be surgeries etc. you may have experienced pre -processing.

The way I would describe it is like feeling spacey and slightly agitated, but nothing in particular has happened to cause it.

You’ve had enough food, rest, and everything is pretty relaxed but there’s a low level of uneasiness in your awareness.

Noticing time passing by faster, or slower, crying o...

What if complaining is a good thing?

Contrary to popular opinion, it is!

Now I’m not saying to start whining to everyone about everything but expressing things you’re unhappy with can be used to create big positive changes!

Now some people just love to complain and they do not actually want things to be different.

I remember years ago being on a cruise where they announced on the speaker system that they had intentionally set up things for people to complain about because it brought them so much joy.

I thought that was hilarious and had never thought of it that way.

But, I’m talking about the things you really want to shift and upgrade for a happier life. 

What I’m suggesting isn’t exactly venting, but allowing yourself to vent can sometimes shift you into awareness and demand for change.

As you vent there’s usually an energy of just expressing things with no purpose but to just off-load the energy.

But, what if you start looking at times you’re bitching and complaining...

Are you truly willing to change?

You may have quickly said yes and thought that was a silly question.

But it is VERY possible that you may be trying to stay exactly the same but you want things in your life to be different. [It doesn’t work that way.]

The version of you that has the things you currently don’t have thinks, feels, and behaves differently than your current version.

Sometimes drastically different. You must “die to the old self” in order to embody the new state of being.

Dying sounds kinda drastic, but some states of being I’m sure we want to die, fall away and never come back.

I know a few times in life I have felt that way LOL! 

So what’s the answer?

How do you get the things you’ve been longing for?

CHOOSE.

Sounds so simple, because it is.

You’re just simply not choosing it.

Do you choose once?

Sometimes, but if you have a lot of resistance and momentum fighting against your new choice you will need to choose repeatedly and stay consistent in the...

Unwanted thoughts happen.

Everyone has experienced unwanted or “negative” thoughts.

I prefer to call them unwanted to take the charge out of it.

If you look at something as negative that immediately puts up resistance and uses a lot of energy and focus to push against it. 

Instead, you can look at it as though there are infinite possibilities, realities, and thoughts available at any moment.

Because there are.

You are actually picking up on others' thoughts, feelings, and other energies all the time to varying degrees.

Thankfully there’s nothing you actually need to do with all of this information, most of the time.

Start practicing just letting those thoughts float through you or past you.

If you have a scary thought and tense up, take a deep breath and think, oh I’m so glad that’s not gonna happen, or that’s an interesting thought... and shake it off.

Stop the habit of trying to figure it out.

What does it mean, is everything ok? Oh no, I knew something bad was goi...

When you start the journey to having more awareness, self-love and acceptance it can be very exciting and freeing.

You start noticing you're feeling happier and lighter, and when you do have an off day they’re nowhere near as frequent or intense as before.

That is until you're stuck in a room full of your relatives or in-laws LOL!

We often think once we move away from family or even have our own, many things that used to bother us just simply go away.

We have our lives pretty much together; we have careers, academic accomplishments, our children, why the heck should it matter what our Uncle "Bart" thinks of us?

Well, it technically doesn't, but that doesn't stop Bart or other family members' opinions or comments from triggering the crap out of us!

So, what to do?

Well, first remember that it is entirely normal for things that people say to bother us from time to time, second take a breath and do your best to let it go and not feed into any annoying comments or actions.