It was fall of 2020 when I posed for this picture in a dazzling sequin jumpsuit.

It was warm and sunny in beautiful Los Angeles and I was so excited to finally do a photoshoot on a rooftop! 

I smiled, played and jumped around most of the time like everything was fine.

But this particular picture captured how I truly felt at the time.

I was in pain, lots of pain actually. Yes, there was emotional pain but the physical pain was the worst I have ever experienced.

Multiple areas of my body were screaming for my attention and I had barely begun to listen.

I won’t go into the details, perhaps I will later…

I’m an extremely aware person and I check in with myself multiple times a day, but I didn’t want to know what I knew back then.

I had seriously overgiven certain people and I could feel my life-force being sucked out of me.

I have always been very physically strong and resilient.

I knew I could handle anything. But, I didn’t stop to think that,...